The game of life

I am now newly moved to Nelson, BC. Living Uphill at a cute little house with beautiful views. I finally got here, after two monthes of searching and roaming from the islands to the Rockies, beginning with a game of transformation with strangers in Saltspring. It occurs to me so often, how tiring this game of seeking can be. Sometimes I get so so sick of following this strange path and having encounters with strange people that literally pop out of the bushes at me. At the same time I know I welcome them into my life, and the mystery of the unknown drives me on. For what? What is this worldly ambition of understanding? After four years away from this blog I wake up everyday realizing that I know nothing at all. My perception of reality is that there is no reality. I ask myself, “Is this really me?” This adventurous warrior spirit thing, is it really my thing? Because this “thing” is always having me dig deep, very very deep for more courage, more compassion, more humility, more understanding, more TRUST. And this “thing” causes doubt, struggles, expansion, sometimes depression. Until one day I am sure I will become the meanest person there is!
Yet I am told there should be no struggle because nature takes the path of least resistance. I am told suffering is optional, and “you will be okay, just don’t ever be sad”, and the best advice so far repeated in every pop song “keep on smiling”. But last week I got stung by a wasp and since then I can’t even smile, so now what? All that is left for me to do this week is consult my horoscope by Rob Brezsny

Leo (July 23-August 22)
You've arrived at the recreate-yourself-from-scratch phase of your cycle. To celebrate, I've gathered three apt pieces of advice for you to scrawl on a piece of paper that you'll put under your pillow. (1) "Almost everything comes from almost nothing." - Henri-Frédéric Amiel. (2) "The best way to predict your future is to create it." - Peter Drucker. (3) "Leap and the net will appear." - Zen saying.

Is this some kind of a joke? Off course it is. Rob Brezsny horoscopes always amuse me.

One can only smile at this funny place,
unless you have been stung by a wasp...

Hmm.......

"hmm...." my favorite phrase for every occasion. It is 3:33 on Tuesday. It seems my blog has been floating in space since 2003. Well now I have come out of the mountains...to add more to this blog smog