Life is Perfect: perfectly strange

I am here and here is now. Here, now, is perfect. It hit me tonight after dinner as I was dreaming of Pacheco. I started to see so many paralells between Pacheco and Nelson. Both these places of scared energy, places for transformation. It makes so much sense now, the journey I had to go through after the transformation game. All the places i saw, and most importantly the good and many bad experiences I encountered. Both Nelson and Pacheco are places of such strong energy one is only meant to be there to transform and leave. After only a short time in Nelson so much shit hit the fan that I was very worried. It is like what the couple from San Franciso said, if you are aware and willing to tap into that well of energy, your life goes fast forward times ten when you come to Nelson. It was like that for me in Pacheco too. So much happened so fast. It sucked me in and soon it pushed me out. The canyon welcomes you, but also lets you know when its time for you to leave. It is so important for us to listen to that.
It feels so good to be here in Fernie. Even though life is always uncertain and things are still unsettling right now, it feels good to know everything that was strange in the past 4 monthes was just perfect. No matter how long I meditate/reflect/introspect to reach that point of understanding when I have conflict in my life, that point of understanding is always already right here and within my peripheral vision the entire time...!

Give the world the finger, pass the caramel corn please!

A week in Fernie and several days of cleaning other peoples houses later ( you first have to clean what you are paying to rent, no house is clean in the kootenays it seems )....I am here and jobless. Again uncertainty. Life is uncertain enough as is even if one has a job, a wife, a husband, children, a mailbox, a permanent address, a line of credit....imagine a life without any of those things...it is liberating yet very lonely and frustrating. Hard to stay afloat and focused on our goals when we are given complete freedom. People who have an abundance of money and a lack theroff run into this same problem. I think i would rather be the rich one. Then at least i wouldnt be a slave to fate. O well, the grass is always greener on the other side. Anyway, both fate and money has carried me here thus far. It is very beautiful and still souful here in Fernie. Yet flaky people are everywhere and I see that here as well. The kootenays man....!
Upon my first day here I went to a local woodwork place that was advertising for workers. I was told I could be slot in on Monday. It is a week later and still no word. I call and they say they want workers and are apologetic, they keep saying the head carpenter will get back to me. Is everyone on some other clock around these parts or what?
The past year has been so much about following my gut that my gut is tired of giving any signals. I ask the heart for advice and it too has told me to fuck off. So I proceeded to buy a bag of caramel corn and now I feel a little better. You know how sometimes you are walking your path and staying true to your heart and you run into all sorts of disheartening road blocks? You start to lose all patience and you want to give the world the finger....yes I am very much at that point now. Infact I would like to give everyone the finger. And no I am not on any hormonal drugs, although there is a lot of sugar in this caramel corn...